Getting Knocked Up

I've been chuckling to myself this last week about how bizarre life is. When you aren't ready and don't want to be pregnant you think any and everything might get you knocked up. I used to think things like, "OH NO! I missed one pill! It's OVER!" I had to have pregnancy tests on hand at all times just to reassure me. Now that I'm actually trying to get pregnant it feels impossible! You read things like, "You have a 25% chance of conceiving each cycle if you do everything perfectly" and "25% of all pregnancies miscarry early on." I found myself wondering how people ever manage to have a baby without ovulation tests and fertility calendars. From surfing the web it felt like just going off birth control will never be good enough!

I always thought it was odd when people would get impatient about getting pregnant. We all know that it takes time, especially after coming off hormonal birth control. Get a grip everyone! Except now, everyone is me, I'm ashamed to say. I'm so impatient it's ridiculous. And I type it here to shame myself into patience.

Everything is still top secret. Only one person knows we're "trying" and that's because I needed to ask some questions about my company's maternity leave. It's tempting to tell lots of people, just because I'm so excited and I know that our parents are going to be thrilled to know we're working on giving them their first grandchild. BUT. No, Sara, no. We're waiting. It's agreed upon. We even have a plan about how we're going to break the news to our parents.

So. Excited. And impatient.

:)

Hurry up little one!