I woke up around 5 AM and needed to pee but I knew if I got up I should test since the box says to test first thing in the morning when your hormones are most concentrated. So, I tried to go back to sleep. I made it until about 5:45 and then had to go pee. I didn't want to waste an expensive First Response test, so I pulled out a tiny test strip I had ordered from Amazon in effort to not break the bank with expensive pregnancy tests. Dip for 3 seconds, wait for 5 minutes. I went to get my phone to set a timer and pass the time. I glanced at the test before I left the bathroom and sighed- the dye looked like it had moved straight across the test strip with no hesitation. It was another negative.
True to my nature, even though I was certain it was negative I had to wait the full time limit listed on the instructions just to be sure. I sat on the closed toilet and stared at the floor thinking that maybe it was just too soon. Or, maybe those light cramps I was feeling would be my period. I glanced over at the test again and I felt like my heart stopped. There were two lines. Distinctly two lines, no squinting needed. I didn't even stop to think, I reached in the box and pulled out a First Response test and dipped it. Two lines in about 5 seconds! TWO LINES! I didn't know what to do so I just sat on the bathroom floor and cried. Cried, prayed, muttered, laughed. It was ridiculous.
Joe was woken to casual conversation and a onesie with my positive test wrapped in it. I told him about my morning and cried some more. We cuddled and talked, laughed and I might have cried some more. It still feels so surreal but we're so excited.
Dear Little Blum,
Be healthy in there. Grow like crazy and get nice and cozy. We love you, we can't wait to see and feel you grow.
Love,
Daddy and Mama
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