Dem scary t'ings

In my weekly pregnancy email update there was a link to a page about what pregnant women are afraid of. I've worried about all of them at one point or another (except sibling rivalry) but one made me stop and think for a bit:

Will it hurt the baby? What an overwhelming feeling it can be to know that you and you alone are solely responsible for the life and well-being of this unborn miracle! I worried, particularly in the first and second trimester, about every "bad" thing I had ever done to my body over the last 28 years!
— Amie Aiello
Evansville, Indiana

Get out of my head Amie!

I'm sure Amie and I are not the first, nor shall we be the last, pregnant women to worry like crazy people during our pregnancies. The internet is not your friend. You can google "fetal hiccups" just for funsies because you're curious about why babies hiccup in the womb and be convinced your baby is at death's door. Paranoia is here people and it is hard to escape.

While this baby is here, living in me, I am 100% responsible for its well being. What I eat, what I do completely determines this little human's well-being. If I did something wrong, how would I ever live with myself? The worries crowd around and completely overwhelm the logic. There is so much to be afraid of and I can be very Much-Afraid (10 points to anyone who gets the reference).

However, you know what? Worry is stupid. It's not helping my little scooter, who is totally just chilling with zero awareness of all my mental angst. LB is doubtless twisting his or herself into some bizarre contortionist position while I type and blissfully lolling about in snuggly fetal delight. I've got to say, Jesus really hit this one on the head when he said, "Can any of you by worrying add a single day to your life?" Nope. Can't. What will happen, will happen and that's that. I should try to be more like LB and just loll about in snuggly delight? I do like being snuggly...