Secret Baby Posts

I'm not going to try to write toooooo many secret baby posts because it will feel weird publishing them all at once. Like the blogging equivalent of RELEASE THE KRAKEN!!! But, I also don't want to neglect these early days of Bebo (Joe hates this nickname so it might not stick).

I feel... terrible. I'm trying to remember if I felt this terrible with Z but it's hard to be sure. My life was so different then. I would get off work at 3:30, come home and sleep. I could nap every day and make dinner to eat at 7 if I wanted to. It was fine. Now, I have a rather demanding toddler who needs to be fed, bathed and in bed by 7/7:30. I don't generally have time for a nap, though I've snuck a few here and there (thank you, Joe). For some reason this baby makes me dreadfully sick in the late afternoon and evening more so than in the morning, which makes making dinner a very unpleasant task some days. I'm having some pretty intense food aversions that I don't recall having with Z. I legitimately cannot eat certain food or I will vomit. There are only a handful of things that I find even remotely appetizing and I'm honestly still at a loss as to what will help settle my stomach down this time around. With Z my tummy was happy with all things carb and dairy. This baby is much pickier. Thus far the only thing that has really seemed to sit well is chocolate milk, but I don't feel great about drinking my weight in chocolate milk for the next 6 weeks. It's really unfortunate, but I am thankful that so far I'm not actually vomiting, so that's great. I know a lot of women have a much rougher time than I am having, so I will try not to be a whiner.

I'm feeling less anxious about being a mom of two as time goes on, though I'm sure the anxiety will come and go. I've started taking Z to a play group on Tuesday mornings and it's bolstered my confidence to see other moms corralling multiple kids. Plus, seeing Z growing all the time makes me realize that in these next 8ish months he is going to grow and change so much that I can't even anticipate what he will be like when newbie arrives. I'm sure there will be hard days, but that is true of any life. I am looking forward to those soft, squishy newborn cuddles. Those days are gone so fast and they are so precious and delicious.

Our next appointment is Oct. 8. My parents are coming to visit this week, (Sept 24) and we will be sharing the news with them then. Joe's family is coming up Oct. 16. Once the families know the big news, we'll let the cat out of the bag to our friends. (Hi everyone!) Then I can make my students feel guilty when they are naughty by playing the pregnancy card. "HOW COULD YOU TURN IN YOUR PAPER LATE?! I'M PREGNANT!!" That'll work, right?